Wednesday, April 4, 2012

My Angel & Devil ~ 心中的天使与恶魔


There are Angel and Devil deep inside my heart. And I can hear their conversation everytime when I am making a decision. Yup, those are the voices from the bottom of my heart. The Angel always encourages me to improve and develop myself; the Devil makes me become lazy.


This is the second semester of my 3rd year in university. What is my comment about myself for the 5 semester that I passed? I believe that I had grabbed the chances to try out different things before this. I can see my growing from all the experience that I gained. But there is one thing that I totally not satisfy with along the 5 semester which is the inconsistence of my life.

Started from 21 March 2012, I have a very strong feeling of want to make change of myself. This time I am serious toward this decision. I want to make sure myself can perform well for my last 3 semester in university. First thing to do is to rearrange my life become more consistence so that all my works will on schedule and well-prepared all the time. Well-prepared would leads to 100% performance. Since the day, the Devil is getting weaker and weaker. And the Angel is totally awake inside my heart.


For the whole next week, the Devil never appears again and my life becomes more schedule and consistence. I feel that I am totally a student that concern about my study, assignments, tests, presentation and so on. Well done, I have proof that I manage to do what I believe in. “If you are not willing to change, no one can force you; if you are determined to change, no one can stop you."

Early in the morning of 2 April 2012, the Devil came out suddenly in my mind. It was persuading me not to attend class again. The kind Angel was arguing with the Devil.

The Devil said, “You already have a very great performance for this semester. You should take a rest for today.”
The Angel offended, “Although you’re performing well but you shouldn’t give up of your hard work to maintain it.”
The Devil again, “This lecturer never takes attendance for his class. You still can continue sleeping.”
The Angel, “Although he is not taking the attendance, but you should go for class.”
The Devil, “… …”


Suddenly I jumped down from my bed, like a strong force was controlling my action. It seems like my action stopped the Devil. It did not giving any chance and excuse to the Devil to continue its persuasion. I can strongly feel that the Angel of mine is much more stronger than the Devil.

The Devil may appear anytime in any situation. I don’t know how many times the Angel able to stop the Devil. I hope that my determination will last forever without the presence of Devil. I am serious and firm this time, therefore I won’t lead myself to a mistake carelessly. A small mistake may happen in our life, but no one wish that we are making a serious mistake that might affect our whole life.



To Be Continue... ^^

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